The single life here is like living in a field of icebergs.

So,

Everyone says that being alone and getting back to independant is good. Maybe that's true when you are in your own country. Maybe its true period. But I don't like it. You know me, I like having someone to share everything with. Its like that silly question, "If a tree falls in the woods, and no one is around to hear it...does it make a sound?"



The answer is no. Yes, the tree falls, and causes sound waves. But, in order for sound waves to become sound they have to be perceived by a hearing organism.



So, if Meghan is in the world and becomes this better person and grows, changes, and improves who she is, but noone is around to watch it happen then does the next person ever know that it happened? No, they see the end product like the man walking in the woods sees a fallen tree. That still doesn't let him hear it.



I'm not making any sounds right now. That bothers me some.

Dating here is like living on a field of Icebergs. Yes, there are plenty, and yes they are evrywhere, but not one is grounded. They all have way more under the surface than above. Half the time you can't see them coming. They destroy things in their path and don' have any regret...they are on their way, have no way of steering themselves in the direction they want to go, hell, who's ever met an iceberg that cared where it went. It just keeps going until one day when its been around so long that it is worn into a lack of existence...and no one even remembers it was around. Now there's just more space or other icebergs to haphazardly exist.

I am looking for an island, my rock. Something grounded, knows where it belongs, has nothing to hide, and is flurishing, on many levels. I just hope this boat of mine lasts until I can spot land.

That gives, "Land Ho!" a whole new meaning.